Just after SPM, i felt really relieved...no homework, no headache, no more burning the midnight oil...
i felt everything was settled, and i can do nothing more rather than just enjoying my freedom....
but now i realize, i should be planning my future...after three months of doing nothing...suddenly so many things popping up in my life...
my mom just bought me a car...as a 18-year old, that was more than enough...but the thing is, she want me to work so that i can pay myself for the monthly payment..i thought she was only kidding..by the look of her face, i know she is serious..not bcoz she dont have money to pay for me but she want me to be a responsible person, learn to face the difficulties of life...plus, she want me to practice driving since i just passed my driving test =)...
i can totally understand her wish...after all she did to me, this is nothing to ask for...i got money to eat, shop, and everything i need, she just want me to pay for my own car and this is only temporary before i pursue my studies...
this is not the problem, just getting started~ i've been asked to be a referee for my x-school sport's day in march and i don’t want to disappoint any party to say no..and i also have 'daurah' to attend monthly without miss...i also have to help my friends for a fund raising project...and i'm currently waiting for my SPM result to be released which can make me faint by just only thinking about it..can i handle the nerves when i work??!
if i work, i cannot fulfil these commitment that is crucial to me as well.....
and the BIGGEST problem is , i do not find any job yet! i know i cannot afford to be choosy, but i want to work at place that open my mind, help me to be more mature and responsible...
till then, hope Allah will guide me the best way and solution for my problem...i know, Allah always there for me...he want me to think, plan and act!
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